Tuesday, February 07, 2012


Advice is so easy to give, but it's really hard to follow. Even if it is your own advice that you know is tried and true. Why is that?
I used to write every day and have a release a month. Now, I can't remember the last time I wrote. I tell people not to forget themselves-to take care of themselves so they can take care of each other. But I don't do it myself.
I used to exercise. Last year. I lost a lot of weight. I gained it all back by not exercising and eating whatever.
Why??? Because it is easy to fall into habit? I'm too tired to care? I don't know, but whatever it is, it's making me miserable.
I know what I need to do, why is it so hard to just do that?
I just did a cleanse. One that I've done in the past and had great success with. This time it was pure hell. I only made it one week and then I had enough. I crashed and burned. I am not only sick with a head cold, but I also have stomach problems. All to hear my husband say I told you this cleanse isn't healthy. Isn't normal. But last year I did it successfully -lost weight and felt great. As days pass things change. We age and change. I suppose I now need to find new ways to write, new methods that will work for the new me. Ones that are easy enough I don't take the lazy way out. Again. oF course things look one way by the light of day and tonight they will look different. Sorry for the rambling blog, but all the important things I thought of to say wandered out of my mind. Something I've noticed happening a lot lately. It's the interuptions by my family. A constant thing that has only gotten worse since I have been back to a full time 'real' job.

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